If Only She Knew

a year ago today... this girl was hurting in more ways than she even knew... so unsure of herself. so unsure of her future. if only she knew what was waiting in the today. i didn’t realize how much i had suppressed until i was in a safe space to express it all. so much hurt, anger, fear, worry, anxiety, etc. just out of high school looking for the acceptance & love i’ve so desperately longed for. if only i could tell her where the TRUE source of love & acceptance is... maybe she wouldn’t have gone through so much hurt ? maybe she wouldn’t have listened anyway.. maybe everything would’ve still worked out the way it did... i’ll never know, but i look back & see how far the Lord has brought me & shudder at all the things i allowed into my life & the way i allowed people to treat me... truly it was because that girl didn’t know how much value she truly has. NOW i do. thank the Lord for restoring my heart & my hurt & using ALL of it for His good. i know i’m a child of God & that’s enough.

for those of you that are in a season where you are feeling so stressed that you feel like you don't even remember who you are. or your identity has a big fat question mark next to it, remember to take the time to focus on hearing the voice of the Lord louder than any other. & just be in the moment, the future is for responsibilities so live it up now.. today is the youngest you'll ever be

hi, i still love you & i'm still here, just trying to live in the moment

i'm still here if you need me

xoxo,

kinley